Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Dear 2008

time is almost up and this year has challenged me out of the 16 years i've been alive. who's to say 2008 wasn't a great year though. i loved it. i mean yeah, there were some struggles. i lost President to one of my best friends. i lost a couple friends, gained some, and built a whole lot more. i mean i had struggles with church. lost faith in a lot of people and even God himself. but i was brought back everytime. memories like sposidate night, SLW, the musical, and all this other stuff make me not wanna let this year go. and i got this thing to blog about tadpole. haha. too bad too many people read it. but yeah 2008 is a year i will never forget. but in a couple more hours...here comes 2009. and many things will be on my resolution list. can't wait. so 2008, goooooooooodbyeeeeeeeeee!!! 2008 blocks on the tower and 1 for good luck! -Ryan:]

Head Wraps, Flat Irons, and A Cat Named Mailyn

WOAH!!! Musical is over. kinda sad. especially since i have no excuse to not help my mom anymore. lmao. so yeah musical went great. hung out there the whole day with the cast and got to know about head wraps and how to never catch a flat iron...EVER. haha. then got to ride around in a wheel chair and laugh at how many people said i look better with flat hair. T__T another sob moment. but yeah. musical went awesome and got a lot of RYAN!!! I DIDNT KNOW YOU COULD SING! thanks everyone!

so other than that, exchanged gifts with a couple people. gave mailyn her jacket. im gonna miss petting that fur. but she got me the cat from Bolt who's equally soft. so its cool. haha. and she said shes gonna get me the hamster now. haha. kinda hope she does... but im just saying. well had to name the cat mailyn and would later on see it stolen from my baby cousin that i stole back from him today. haha. sorry cuz. speaking of family my whole family saw a video of me singing and i might be forced to sing at a damn wedding. haha. thanks uncle for the great footage.

well once again thanks everyone for the support and thanks mailyn for the gift and thanks family for further embarrassment. 1-2-3 Blocks on the Tower. -Ryan:]

PS Look out for the final installments of Ryan's Building Blocks for 2008!

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Wrap Me Up and Call Me Flat!

hey everyone. i promised myself i wouldnt write about this but i am. just to get on peoples nerves.
SO TODAY (hah u thought) i had musical practice. and i have to leave my hair down tomorrow. no wax, hairspray, just all natural. T____T i had a moment there. haha. but dude thats gonna be like crazy for me. well, to be honest im ok. but i am worried for the musical cuz things arent going as planned. too many last minute changes. i swear. but just gotta make it good. so if ur in the crowd tomorrow please dont make me laugh.

kk so went shopping with kim for our day. haha. had a crazy feeling i would see jamaica there and next thing u know jamaica walks in to Tsuruya and sits on the table next to us. Telepathy i swear. bought me new shoes. haha. debut tomorrow. and bought kim a jacket for her new boy toy. haha. so gay. jk:] oh and i got gifts for some people. burdens on my wallet. haha. jk again:]
well kim and i had a great convo in the car about some things and i officially am in love with...ready...

no one. haha. tricked u again. but kinda glad. i guess. no more sob blogs. haha. and no more confusion to burden on liz. and whoever i went to. but yeah. well blocks on the tower for new shoes. BTW CHRISTMAS MUSICAL TOMORROW @ OLPH! better be there:] -Ryan:]

Friday, December 26, 2008

Hooray For Chrismukkah!!!

haha. so this year Christmas didn't seem like Christmas at all cuz everything went by so quickly. but in the end this year was super good. well to me anyway. so started off with my cousins birthday party on Christmas Eve. ate me some sushi ... a lot of it. haha. then went straight to midnight mass. so i was fricken running around all night and could barely hear any of the scriptures or homily. instead i was trying to find seats for people who came late to mass. -__-. hopefully God understands.

go home around 2 to 2:30. after thinking for awhile decided to call my friends until one of them finally answered. talked to them for awhile about *stuff and couldnt sleep until like 5. haha. what! i wasnt tired. got up to my sister waking me up and telling me lets open gifts. nothing better than a 22 year old telling u to wake up.

got gifts. got my red jacket to add to the collection and toilet paper from my auntie as a joke. haha. then fell asleep for like 3 hours after opening gifts. got up and went to cousins house to play guitar hero. haha. the kid got the whole damn set! what! like challenge;]

haha. so yeah Christmas was okay. but what i liked about this year was how everything that happened this month helped me to get closer to God and see the real meaning of Christmas. i mean Jesus was born on this very day and we celebrate because of him. and for that im thankful :]

so Happy Birthday Jesus! cant wait to sing to u at the musical;]
and for that blocks on the tower! -Ryan:]

PS Happy Birthday Liz!

PSS My grandma spelt my name wrong on a gift. RHYAN! Like wth! haha.

PSSS Christmas + Honnukah = Christmakkuh (The OC!)

Sunday, December 21, 2008

The Old, The New, and The Unresolved

hey everyone so i just got back from lifeteen and yeah it was great. it was the kinda lifeteen im really glad i didnt leave even if i saw some people i didnt wanna see and there wasnt a lot of people.

so this blog is about the title. so lets start with the old. so lets admit it today i saw tadpole for the first time in hmmmm...idk how long. and at first all i did was ignore and ignore and ignore. until i finally sucked up my pride and said welcome back. lame right, but it started a convo and turns out im glad im finally over tadpole. but i know its still gonna take some time to say that officially and not ever think about it again. but i look at it as i guess its time for me to start over with a new slate since its almost 2009 and all those seniors could leave already...cuz u know 2010 will always be better><>

the new. this lifenight seriously opened my eyes to a lot. i got stuck in Sarah's group. and miss fbk herself talked a lot of sense into me. but that i will continue later. the new is about the new. its official. ryan has a crush. haha. and its someone i wouldve never expected. but im deciding to let this one stay with me than blabber on about it. but just know that this one, is like wow. haha.

and finally the unresolved. i guess this one has a lot to it. first where has my sponsor and i been lately? all we do is hug and say hi. no conversations at all. it kinda irks me but im letting it go seeing he has a lot on his plate. second, why is lifeteen not lifeteen anymore? i mean tonight only 21 people went. i mean we used to have 80 people. i mean have they strayed from God. and third why wont miss thomas update my grade?T___T i want an A damnit. there are so many things that are unresolved.

but then sarah taught me something tonight. whats life without obstacles? nothing. God gives us obstacles not only to make us better but to make the Promise complete and to put total trust in him. and only then will the old, the new, and the unresolved unfold. blocks on the tower! -Ryan:]

Saturday, December 20, 2008

The Girl Can Sang

first off FUCK YES! haha. i am officially on break and i am homework free. amazingly i might get another 4.0 but i dont wanna jynx it. but now i am priorities free! well at least from school anyway.

in other news, i decided that i am continuing the Christmas Musical and be Joseph who will most likely...actually WILL steal the show. haha. still gotta work on my humbleness. but today i met my co-star who can blow me out of the water. haha. the girl can SANG. excuse me for my slang. haha. she kicked all of our asses. some other wierd stuff happened tonight too. chris did this thing where he opened his mouth to the microphone and made the wierdest noises i've ever heard. haha. me, mixxel, and chelsea couldnt stop laughing. and i learned that i could do a perfect twirl with the colorgaurd flag on my first try. haha. also, walked with mai today. haha. that mofo is still the same. hope u do good at winterball;]. sorry im not coming. i know u wanted to dance with me. haha. jk. oh yeah and my family is all home for the holidays with the exception of one. but can't wait for the familia reunion. oh and saw my second favorite person in the world today.
-__- what a $#^. haha. kk. but gonna go. just thought id update it for liz><. haha. 3 blocks on the tower. -Ryan:]

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Life Is Kinda Suckish

its all in the title. yeah so lately life has been kinda suckish. kk. so yeah i've been super busy no doubt. and i have to bring my grades up. i am borderline D. like WTH! haha. and the worst part is im not all that mad at myself about it. im just like "Oh a D, hmmm whatever!" wth is wrong with me. a couple months ago i would be going crazy now, as kaycee says, its not my priority.

second church is really not what it used to be. i go in expecting this great feeling and let down. i feel like lifeteen is not as uplifting. i mean church is great. i think nothing's changed between me and God. but when i reach lifeteen i look around and feel super out of place and the people i wanna see most are never there. which is super suckish.

third LOUJEL IS GONE. haha. shes in the PI for 3 weeks. what am i gonna do without her. oh yeah act normally. hahah. but yeah its gonna be really empty without her considering shes gone during the holidays. ugh so lame.

fourth the musical and all these other priorities. for the first time im SUPER overwhelmed. i wanna go to musical practice but no time. and i totally forgot about the NHS math meet and people got mad at me. so suckish. i said i was sorry. and to top all of that my mom doesnt want me to leave the house when its raining. thanks mom-__-

well not everything is that bad. i mean me and my family have been great. and theres only one week of school left. hmm. oh well done for now. block on the tower-Ryan:]


Thursday, December 11, 2008

Ryan...The Snob

im a snob. plain simple. i see u in the hallway and i walk right by. no hello's, no hug's, sometimes i dont even look at u. haha. so please don't feel offended when i do that. i swear that im not mad at u. its just how i choose to live life. and the fact that i cant see a thing without my glasses on. haha.

snobbing people is actually how i deal with things to. kk so there was this one time where someone was waving to me. so i waved back and next thing u know they were waving to the person behind me. so shame. haha. from that moment on i learned my lesson.

and another thing i need to bring up in this blog. i know that i haven't been very dedicated to much of anything lately. my heart is always half in it because my mind is over flowing with all the things i have to get done. a boy needs some rest ya know. and yeah, i've apologized a milion times to people already. its so bullshit. because i always apoligizize for missing out on things and next thing u know im on the front page of Let's Hate on Him Weekly. haha. but yeah it does blow over because im always the "nice kid." but just to let everyone know im gonna try and get my act together. keyword "try."

but back to what i was saying. the other day someone calls me asking if i was mad at them because i never say hi back. haha. no i wasnt. i was probably irritated or just couldnt see u. yeah i guess i do need to get contacts. but yeah. so next time i snob u, its out of love. haha. kk. block on the tower.-Ryan:]

Monday, December 8, 2008

What Did I Say

so last night was ghetto i swear to God. so i get to church and for some reason it felt different. oh wait lets go back. so first iwa comes to my house we do science fair. turned out our project turned out really crappy-__-. but whatever. i missed christmas musical practice. sry everyone promise i'll be there next time. and to church i go.
okay so back to where i was. church feels wierd. idk y. i just felt this feeling that something bad was gonna happen. and next thing u know it does. oh btw fricken rjay decides to scare me from behind with a huge hug. haha. funny but wth!
okay so church ends and i find out that someone i care deeply for lost something they cared deeply for. no, nobody died. but a relationship might have grown weaker. and this happened to two people not just one. and two people also are suffering trying to figure out a way to fix it. so yeah its vague but i cant really mention anything right now because its on the dl. but i was totaly blindsided. and the thing that hurt the most was i had to find out from someone else about this news. and i had to tell the other person about the news and they were sad. sorry. im being really vague right now. but it'll all make sense in awhile. promise to keep u guys updated. and for this blog no blocks on the tower.-Ryan:]

Sunday, December 7, 2008

What's To Come

so i decided to write this blog for a couple reasons. for one my other blog looked lonely on December, haha. and for the other December is usually the month that scares me the most.
for one December means Christmas. which means being broke. which means no presents for friends. which means guilt when they give u something. haha. how great huh. but i'll find a way to scrummage up some money. i knew i shouldnt have quit ninja sushi that early.
second, December im gonna be busy like crazy. from deadlines with homework, to bringing up failing grades. haha. and i know the worst is still to come. oh yeah and im gonna be busy with the whole church musical thing.
which is next on my list. i know i said i wouldn't bring this up when i said i was gonna write this blog. but last year, this month, my life took a drastic change. and seeing myself now from one year ago, it kinda scares me of what is to come. and this whole christmas musical thing at church really is making me remember some of the things i've tried so hard to forget. but like i said this month will be unpredictable to say the least.
oh yeah not to mention new years is just around the corner and look out for my reinvention. haha. btw, at least we have an excuse to go shopping now right. idk. im babbling again. well one block on the tower. -Ryan:]

Saturday, December 6, 2008

Back From MIA

hey everyone. so i havent wrote a blog in awhile. but im back everyone. haha.
well part of the reason i've been gone is that i've been super busy. like with class and deadlines and everything. especially being sick. i've been a record sick for two weeks now. haha. thats a first. second reason i've been gone is i've had nothing to talk about. i mean im finally in a place where im free of drama and free of strings. no crushes, no family issues, and no tadpole...surprisingly. just trying to focus on school and all this other stuff. but it's been great. i mean i know my friends brought up that i havent been as fun lately and when they talk to me i zone out. haha. but sry kiddos. i'll try to listen next time. i mean im still the weird cooky ryan on the inside.
btw, please tell me if u thought i was a snob when u first met me. haha. i've been hearing that a lot lately. a lot of "ryan i thought u were a snob. but turned out ur one of the nicest people ever." haha. thats great to hear even the 50th time around. oh yeah and other updates, i was voted most spirited, i still have a D in chem, im switching out of chem to go into rams 3rd period, i will be playing joseph in the christmas musical, and i will be posting a christmas wish list soon. jk. well a block on the tower. -Ryan:]

ps. how do u know when tadpoles turn into frogs. haha. look out for my next blog:]